as you age, you start to question whether you still have what it takes to live life. my current favorite song is kris kristofferson’s “Pilgrim’s Progress” – i love this because it hits right to the heart on the issue of aging and the lines are appropriate for a 40 year old guy like me.

Am I young enough to believe in revolution
Am I strong enough to get down on my knees and pray
Am I high enough on the chain of evolution
To respect myself, and my brother and my sister
And perfect myself in my own peculiar way

I get lazy, and forget my obligations
I’d go crazy, if I paid attention all the time
And I want justice, but I’ll settle for some mercy
On this Holy Road through the Universal Mind

I got lucky, I got everything I wanted
I got happy, there wasn’t nothing else to do
And I’d be crazy not to wonder if I’m worthy
Of the part I play in this dream that’s coming true



July 26, 2006

Four jobs I’ve had in my life:

  1. DJ sa RJ 100.3 (working student)
  2. Dbase III Programmer/System Analyst sa Quiapo
  3. Instrument Engineer/Automation Engineer (pero hindi ako gumagawa ng guitara)
  4. Sex Slave to my wife (it’s not a job, it’s an adventure)

Three Movies I would love to watch over and over:

  1. The Godfather (especially the scene where Sonny bangs his Sister’s maid of honor and the scene where Michael is sent to exile in Sicily after killing Sollozo and where he meets, weds and makes love to his virgin bride) – I know every line from this movie.
  2. Groundhog Day – In my book, this is Bill Murray’s best film. What would you do if you suddenly re-lived one day in your life over and over again. Oh the sweet possibilities.
  3. Kung Mangarap Ka’t Magising – set in Baguio, the film is about a young man who falls for a married woman who is spending her vacation in baguio because she had a big fight with her husband. My favorite pinoy movie of all time. Hilda Koronel and Christopher de Leon really know how to act. The drama, the music and the comedy are woven into a film and the results are excellent. Bebeth Orteza, Danny Javier and Buboy provide the Comic relief. I NEED A DVD OF THIS FILM!!!

Five TV Shows I love to watch:

  1. The Sopranos (great sex and violence)
  2. Rome (great sex and violence)
  3. Big Love (great sex and no violence but lots of stories on polygamy)
  4. The Simpsons (I wish it had great sex)
  5. The Daily Show/Colbert Report – my daily dose of news and fun

Five places I have lived:

  1. Pasay City – my province, the place where I was born
  2. Talipapa, Novaliches (during the 1970’s it was paradise)
  3. Antipolo (right after the sabungan and before you fall off the mountain into Teresa)
  4. Singapore (our beloved home away from home)
  5. Foothill Ranch, California (in orange county, just 20 minutes off Laguna Beach)

Four places I have been on vacation:

  1. Dipolog/Dapitan, Zamboanga del Norte – I love the private white sand beaches and Rizal’s house by the sea
  2. New Zealand – The place Jet and I would rather be
  3. On Top of Mount Apo – Jet and I were there last year for over a week. I was working but I didn’t care. It was a great trip.
  4. Bintan Island, Indonesia – fond memories of friends, good food, happy times

Websites I visit Daily

  1. Jet’s blog/ My blog
  2. Blogkadahan
  3. Gmail
  4. Google News

Four of my favorite food

  1. Adobo ni Jet
  2. Menudo ni Mommy
  3. Binagoongan ng Mommy ni Jet
  4. Pritong Baboy extra crispy na may taba, sawsawan ay sukang may siling labuyo , white hot steaming white rice,  with ginisang monggo at tubig na malamig (PUTANGINA, bigla akong nagutom)

Right now I would rather be

  1. at home in bed, semi dark, a bit cool, naked with my wife under the sheets, spooning, touching and getting aroused.

sometimes its the before sex that’s really exciting.

the best way to solve the middle east crisis is to find an alternative to oil. that way the world will lose interest in the region and we can completely forget about the iraq war and all that it comes with. the jews and muslims can kill each other for all we care.

case in point is africa. there is no oil in somalia or the sudan and the world doesn’t care if thousands of people die there everyday because of AIDS, civil war or hunger.

In First Veto, Bush Blocks Stem Cell Bill: “‘This bill would support the taking of innocent human life in the hope of finding medical benefits for others,’ Bush, speaking at the White House, said after he followed through on his promise to veto the bill. ‘It crosses a moral boundary that our decent society needs to respect. So I vetoed it.'”

Support the taking of innocent human life. WTF?

Tell that to the families of the thousands of Americans and Iraqis who have died in the war.

come away with me
in the night
same song
different circumstance
played by chance
on an evening
of aimless

Pinoy Pride!!!


June 28, 2006

it’s summer time in southern california and the days are hot. most of the people i know are going on extended breaks. i don’t blame them. i’d rather be in a beach somewhere with an umbrella drink in my hand instead of being in a stale room looking at a computer for eight hours.


June 27, 2006

i miss singapore. the four years jet and i spent there was one of the happiest times in our lives. it was there that we met lovely people who became close friends. it also gave us the security and comfort that i have not experienced anywhere else.

yes, i must admit that there are people there who have body odor that will make your nose bleed but so what. i love singapore – i love its people, i love its food , i love everything about it. i’d love to move back there again someday.

thank you singapore. i’ll see you again, i’m sure.

one thing good about company conferences is you get to meet old friends. most of my old colleagues in asia-pacific are here with me this week. it's nice seeing them again – when i look at their faces, shake their hands and get up to speed on all the gossip, i am reminded of all the great things we left behind when we were still based on the other side of the big pond.


June 8, 2006

i've been stuck here in a hotel in southern california for almost a week now and i am beginning to feel really tired. i am attending a company conference and it has been one prestentation after another from 7:30 in the morning until 5:30 in the afternoon. death by powerpoint, they call it. to make up for all this, each of us got one iPod nano as a gift. not bad. i hope i can attend again next year. who knows, they might give everyone a laptop computer.


May 25, 2006

our marriage has been like a long road trip to an unknown destination where you start with just a small backpack and the clothes on your back. we didn't have much early on – in fact, we were so poor that we didn't have enough money to have a "proper wedding". no church, no rings, no fancy reception. no anything. but i look back at those early years as one of the most exciting and happy in our marriage. the early struggles didn't last long. soon afterwards, we were able to get our acts together and build a home of our own. now, here we are, celebrating our 15th anniversary and looking at a future that is filled with so much promise. i can't wait to see what will happen next.


May 24, 2006

jakarta, indonesia reminds me so much of manila. it almost has the same feel. it has the same sad sorry old houses on one side of the street and beautiful new buildings on the other. i could swear that the roads too have the same number of potholes. replace the many mosques with churches and you can't tell the difference. the people look the same – brown skinned, always smiling faces. we speak differently but we share many common words. some have different meanings or are pronounced differently but most of the common words mean the same. it's as if the indonesians and filipinos have been separated at birth and allowed to grow individually that eventually they ended up looking the same and yet somehow different.


May 20, 2006

i used to hate drinking milk. growing up in south east asia, one is not predisposed to drink milk as most of the kids are in the west. we're either water, tea or coffee drinkers over in that part of the world and a lot of us are lactose intolarant. there is the occasional fresh carabao milk that we used to get when we were kids but that was more like a novelty. but everything has changed since we've moved to california. i now drink milk everynight before i sleep and in the morning, i mix it with my cereal. even i am surprised – i am beginning to like it.


May 20, 2006

this month marks my fifth year out of the philippines. i don't miss it really. in fact, i miss singapore more that i miss my home country. why is that? perhaps i am sick and tired of the politics. sick of the heat and the humidity. sick of the dust. sick of the traffic. sick of the corruption. i know this will change someday. but for now, i am loving sunny southern california.


May 14, 2006

my mom and dad split up when i was 13 years old. after that it was my mom who took care of me. it was difficult for all of us because with my dad gone, money became a big problem. i don't know how she did it but for the next 10 or so years, she put food on the table and made sure that i would finish school. it must have been so hard for her but she didn't complain. i look back now and am amazed of her poise and grace. her perseverance did bear fruit – eventually i would finish school and become successful with my career.

happy mother's day mom. thanks for everything.


May 12, 2006

hong kong was the first place i visited out of the philippines and i remember it like it was yesterday. in was an uneventful business trip though and we didn't see much. we spent the four days that we were there travelling from hotel to office. in fact, the most memorable part of the trip was the treacherous landing into the old Kai Tak Airport.

you must remember that this was my first trip abroad and so touching down was really a big deal. i remember every small detail – the cathay pacific plane we were riding came in from the harbour and as the plane descended, i looked out and saw huge mountains and row upon row of buildings to the left and right of the runaway. we were flying so low that i could make out individual people inside their apartments who were probably eating their lunch (or maybe they were looking out at some guy watching them from an airplane window). then as we were about to land, somebody played tina turner's "simply the best" on the airplane's sound system. we had arrived.

i had arrived.


May 10, 2006

my wife and i knew early on that we won't be able to have any kids. it was going to be the two of us together till death do us part and this was just as well. this made us mobile enough to move anywhere with ease. it was perfect for a life based overseas. which is why when the opportunity came for us to live abroad, we immediately took the chance and moved out. we haven't looked back ever since. it has been five years already and what a great trip it has been.


May 9, 2006

LORD OF THE FLIESmany years ago, i was part of a team of engineers that did power plants up in the virgin rain forests of the philippines. well, they weren't virgin anymore by the time we went up. it was more like "partially screwed". during the early 1990's, we had massive blackouts because there wasn't enough electricity in the island and everybody was scrambling to start up power plants all over the country. being in the pacific ring of fire, the philippines has a major geothermal power reserve. to produce power, all you needed to do was to draw from the well, so to speak. i've never been told the reason why, but most of the geothermal power reserves are in the middle of rain forests and in order to tap that power, you need to build power plants right where the resourse is located. as part of the engineering team building the plants, that means we had to live there. it was fun at the start but when you’re up in the rain forest for long stretches, things start to change. because of all the isolation, you start to think crazy thoughts and then you start doing crazy stuff. pretty soon, you run through the jungle naked and do kung fu poses.

i’ve been on the road almost all my adult life. i’ve been to all the right places travelling for all the wrong reasons. yes “ive been to georgia and california and anywhere i could run” as the line of that most hated song goes. i’ve done it by bus, boat, plane, jeepney, truck, car, motorcycle and everything in between. i am an engineer and because of work, i’ve been hopping from one island after another all these 18 years. it’s been a rich experience – i’ve met so many people, seen so many things and been to many places that i would otherwise not have experienced had i done something else. well, i could have been a sailor and maybe travelled even more but i digress.

i am an accidental tourist.


May 3, 2006

it was misty again today during my early morning walk. the streets were damp and it was chilly. it was that kind of day when the best thing to do was just to lie in bed, sleep the whole morning off and have a late breakfast or an early lunch (or both). but instead i was out trying to lose last night's dinner. it wasn't so bad, really. i had my iPod and was marching in a steady cadence to some european singer singing dylan's "blowin' in the wind" in german.

its been foggy and grey during the mornings since last saturday. i guess this is part of what the people here call the “may grey / june gloom” season. it’s that time of year when the weather gods start bringing in layers of vapor and mist from the pacific ocean. but only during the morning though. around lunch time, the sun appears and all of a sudden it’s spring time again.

The Flowers of May

April 1, 2006

Originally uploaded by batjay.

ano bang mga twisted guilty pleasures ninyo? marami akong mga kakilala na halos mag orgasm pag nagku-kutkot ng tenga. sinusundot ng walis ting-ting ang loob at pagkatapos ay kinikilig sa sarap. hehe. mayron namang mga iba na mahilig mangulangot habang nagmamaneho – sa singapore, maraming ganito. halos ipasok ang hinlalaki sa butas ng ilong. nung high school naman ako, mayroon kaming teacher na mahilig magkalkal ng betlog. para hindi namin mahalata, ididikit niya ang singit niya sa kanto ng teachers desk ay doon magkakaskas. obvious naman na gusto niya ito dahil minsan nahuhuli namin siyang napapapikit.

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January 2, 2006

HUNTINGTON nakapag ikot din ako sa bisikleta nung sabado bago dumating yung bagyo. nagsimula ako sa newport beach at umakyat north bound sa huntington beach (kung saan ko kinuha ang photo na ito). ang huntington ay isa sa mga unang beach na napuntahan ko rito sa california kaya memorable ito sa akin. historic din ang location na ito dahil dito nagsimula ang surfing culture sa california.

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January 1, 2006

dear unkyel batjay,

first of all happy new year sa inyo, sampu ng inyong mahal sa buhay. yaman din lamang at bagong taon ngayon, gusto ko lang malaman sa inyo: kung mayroon po kayong pagkakataon na bumalik back in time, ano po ang iibahin ninyo sa buhay?

yun lang po. ingat at best regards,
gentle reader

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